Build Tomorrow - Another Day Of Life

It’s been three days since my last post. But sometimes life gets in the way. Still no results from round 3 with the school. We are waiting to hear back from the Special Education Director, so we shall see what happens. Other than that the last three days were more concern over our money, it’s really stressful, baseball games, and other various running around. My wife is looking for home-based work she can do to help the money aspect, as she is as tired as I am of worrying about it, and arguing about it.
Other than that I am just feeling, well kind of defeated. My wife and I have been together for just about a year, and I think I have done a good job of stepping into the Dad role. I spend a large amount of time with the boys, and don’t shy away from my parenting duties. I never really have thought of them as step-sons, but rather my own, but there are days like today I am reminded I am not part of the “inner circle”. There seem to be plenty of times that my wife and I make a decision, and if the boys don’t like it, they make sure to tell their grandparents about it, who give my wife a hard time, and because she was not allowed to make any parenting decisions when she was living with them, it is of course in her mothers eyes, my influence. In most cases I try to defer to my wife, in the fact that she has raised the boys their whole lives and I am just a year into it. But of course her mother always has her “words of wisdom”. Today is one of those days where I feel like just letting the boys do whatever, and step back from the whole parenting role, and let them do whatever they want. Though when you sign on to be a parent, you don’t really have that choice do you. Of course her mother won’t let it rest, so we both end up getting depressed. Anyway, as far as the money thing, I am still trying to find ways to make money on-line, so any suggestions would be helpful, and in addition, any ideas of things my wife could do would be warmly welcomed.
~Another Day

So today is National take your child to work day. Both of mine attended, and it’s been well interesting. Will is having a blast, but I can tell the day is beginning to wear him out. My company has had all sorts of exciting activities, which he has had a thrill doing. John on the other hand has been doing nothing but refusing to leave my office, his anxiety at a premium. He has virtually sat next to me all day, though I finally got him to stay with the group to watch a movie. So I can actually get some work done. How many here have taken their kids to work? I can tell you it’s given me a whole new appreciation for what my wife does every single day? Any similar stories out there?

It’s Monday! Another week trying to earn my way to find another $51,998.36. I keep hoping a millionaire will click that darned Donate button, but rats, not yet. Though even of one did I would still continue to try and raise the cash on my own, and then donate it to a charity, probably something like the National Multiple Sclerosis Society. It was the disease that ultimately took my mother, and I try to do something each year in her memory.
So the weekend was sunny and hot. We took the boys to an amusement park on Saturday. We always try to go in the fall because you can buy the next years pass for a really, really cheap price, which pays off the following year, when you can go for free! And trust me we are all about free. I can’t wait to go for a walk soon as it’s 84 degrees, no humidity, and I can work off my homemade salad. Now if only the sunburn on my arms from the park Saturday, and yard work Sunday would stop itching….
So now a month in I am feeling a bit better, but still have a way to go. At 34 I am on marriage #2, though still friends with the ex, have a lot of debt, and two children that are polar opposites of each other. Now if I could just get the older one in school. He knows that his mother not working makes things a little tight, and no matter what we tell him, he knows he is one of the causes. But as I keep telling him, he needs to be positive and look ahead, to the good things in his life. Though there are days I can see how having hope and optimism can be difficult.
How many times a day do we see all of the bad news on TV, hear it on the radio, and have it come at us 50 different ways. It’s the small pockets of bad that can easily make people forget the good in life. But most people have a truly good spirit, and give when they can. I have lots to reflect on after my first month of blogging, but don have much more time for today. So I want to leave you with a funny video.
~Another Day